Currently Playing Korn - Greatest Hits, Vol. 1 By Korn the entire cd see related

"I TRIED SO HARD AND GOT SO FAR...BUT IN THE END IT DOES'NT EVEN MATTER"......OR DOES IT??????

I have no idea what to say......the epic is over.  But as many know i put up a fight, and I continue to do so.  Today I am taking a "mental" day off of work.  I did see what true friends are last night, I also saw sides of people I never once in my life thought I would see.  For starters, Jen heard shit stating that i cheated or something.  Me working my ass off to disspell it, called the source, someone I thought was genuine, and I do believe that he knows i did not try anything.  Part of me thinks she was just looking for any old reason, kind of like she woke up and said to herself, today is the day! Whatever my messed up head thinks, it's done.  But as I have said before I am not, and continue to not give up, if I have to wander the earth alone, knowing there may be a glimpse of us meeting again I will.  I have never loved like I love her.  Anyone who knows me, especially my friends knows that all I do is talk about her, now I wait for her call, even if it's 5 years from now, I will be here with open arms, willing to drop everything in a heartbeat.  Last night when everything went down I was giving a bass lesson to one of my best friends, and Jason called me, I didn't have to say anything, just in a simple hello he said "I don't know whats wrong but i am on my way over."  Talk about reading me, he looked at me when he came over and automatically knew, i then talked to him, then Colin called, and just like Jason, he said he was here for me.  As well as my singer, Chris.  He may be Iowa right now but he said if i needed anything he'd be in the car on his way.  I never had the experience of true friends, except for Rich and Mike, they were there for me as well.  Ricky said he would talk until he fell asleep....and he did just that.  I love all of them for what they did, and continue to do.  I am not going to class today.  I am going to be with Colin and Jason for the most part today, I also have to call th rave in Miluakee and confirm one of the bands i manage to play with bowling for soup.  I received good news as well, the Agency group (run by Morgan and Mercedes Lander of Kittie) is going to manage us.  In turn, we are almost confirmed to play a small tour with kittie in March, we have to have a good demo, and in turn we are starting to record this weekend I believe.  I am very excited to start something new.  This will be good for me, someone told me I need to play music, it is my calling, someone i love dearly, you know who you are brother!  Thanks for being there for me man.  A dozen furies won the battle for ozzfest...way to go buddies!  $60,000, slot on ozzfest, and equpiment for life!  i have practice all day today which is good for me, i can take anger out on my gear!  To the one person who started this, you better stay back, when a person loses everything they have, lord knows what they will do...to you fucker......im done....now lyrics time

Dan-bass-stagnance

well if you wanted honesty
that's all you had to say
i never want to let you down or have you go
it's better off this way
for all the dirty looks
the photographs your boyfriend took
remember when you broke your foot
from jumping out the 2nd floor

i'm not okay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
you wear me out

what will it take to show you that it's not the life
it seems
i've told you time and time again
you sing the words but
don't know what it means
to be a joke and look
another line without a hook
i held you close as we both shook
for the last time-take a good hard look

i'm not okay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
you wear me out

forget about the dirty looks
the photographs your boyfriend took
you said you'd read me like a book
but the pages are all torn and frayed

now i'm okay, i'm okay......
i'm okay now, i'm okay now,

well you really need to listen to me
because i'm telling you the truth
I mean this
i'm okay, trust me

i'm not okay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay
i'm not o-fucking-kay, i'm not okay, i'm not okay

Currently Playing The Curse By Atreyu bleeding mascara see related

ATREYU

"BLEEDING MASCARA"

A wraith with an angel's body
A demon with a smile of gold
You soulsucker
I won't become like you
I kill with the perfect weapons, crystal eyes, and a heart of coal
You soulsucker
I won't lose myself in you

Look how pretty she is when she falls down
Now there is no beauty in bleeding mascara
Lip are quivering like a withering rose
She's back again

What the fuck do you think love means?
It's much more than words and feelings sucking me dry
Is my marrow that sweet?
Your dead lovers have left a trail of broken hearts and misspent hopes
Sucking them dry
Does their marrow taste of sweetness, sweetness?

I hope you choke

Currently Playing Rock Steady By No Doubt running see related

Ok so the call, we went to great america, fuckin awesome time, but even though Dan seemed content, he was eyeing Jen all day, whether she noticed or not.  We jumped in the tiburon, jammed linkin park, and basically put on a show for the two chicks in the back.  We had so much fun, Chris slept over at Dan's that night.  They talked to the 2 girls all night, and a quiz came, which in turn the boys totally bullshitted.

jump forward in the summer: the call:

so Dan was watchin kids, and he was listenin to the zone, now his phone etiquette was poor and Jen was mad at him for never calling back, Ozzy came on, and he realized he needed to do what needed to be done. He called her and told her he liked her, after the phone dropped on her part, he later went to her condo which she was moving out of, she gave him batman mugs, now he has a soft spot for batman, insane huh?  she told him she liked him later, but he had to leave because Kelly was coming over, so he left and thought about her all day and continues to this day.

The Kiss:  Dan picked Jen up and they drove around and ended up at target in the parking lot.  He had heard she kissed their friend Kevin, he said to himself tonight is the night, he needed to to it, put up or shut up, so he kissed her, it was the most amazing thing to ever happen to him in his entire life. Now confused because he had a girlfriend he needed to break up with her and take the chance.

wwe continue later with Wal-Mart....

lyrics:

Run Running all the time Running to the future With you right by my side Me
I'm the one you chose Out of all the people You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I'm falling Help me up lets keep on running Don't let me fall out of love Running, running As fast as we can Do you think we'll make it? (Do you think we'll make it?) We're running Keep holding my hand It's so we don't get separated Be Be the one I need Be the one I trust most Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up
(The future)